Frankly speaking, now i really am afraid of many things... i afraid that i will fall down again, i afraid that i will fail my eng again, i afraid that history will repeat...I keep asking myself why can't i do things right the first time and do it well?Why can't i treasure this chance to prove to myself again?I tried to be optimistic but somehow, my mind does not seems so...I really wonder where i will be next year after finishing this course?ARmy, Poly,ITE? What will my results be like? Will i cry again over my results again?Will i breakdown again?I really don't know...My future seems blur to me...I'm not getting any younger...Is passing english a aim that is too high for me that i will never reach?I don't know...I just wants to finish my studies fast and at least get a diploma cert to work but why it seems so difficult to me?
Somehow i really wonder have i made the right choice by coming to tourism course to study this year...or i should hav just drop my studies last year and move on to army first...i don't know...But there's one thing that i can guarantee i have made the right choice by coming to this course...i got to know many funky and nice ppls from my class...from them i see many qualities that others don't have"independent, friendly, contented, helpful, and many more..." Two more english papers to go at oct...i not sure whether i can do well or even pass the papers...But by next year, i will know it...
>>>Some battles are meant to be lost in the first place no matter how hard you fight, or how well-equipped you are<<<
Let the thoughts go wild!
