Actually for the past few days, my mood was not veri gd..but i still force myself to smile more and be more cheerful as i dun wan others to be affected by me or tink i got depression=) And i had a dream a few days back and guess wat i dream of? My dream was like a reflection of my life from Sec 1 to current..
I dream of how i got into westwood sec with chi suan as the one accompanying me as my other primary scl friends were all going to Hua Yi or Hong kah sec cuz close to their home..=)The days when i 1st step into Westwood, meeting kenneth as my 1st friends and buddy..He's really veri funny and a veri friendly person and someone veri hyper active wan haha..and i really enjoyed having him as my 1st friends in westwood sec=)
Then, i got to know more and more ppls like Jin Sheng,Fiona, Hui Ling, Xinhui, AAron, Desmond, Jasmin, Azhar,Wesley, Chee shian, Chong yinn and many more.. I can said tat i learn alot from them cuz each got their own personality and something unique abt each of them..To me, friends are like angels.. They would accompany me whenever i am happy or sad, brighten up my life, and someone special in their ways of living too..
In some parts of my lives, i hav oso been hurting others(especially the one i loved), neglecting them, failed to spared a thoughts for them, nt committed enough, and giving them cold shoulder in times. And seeing them cry really breaks my hearts..Nw thinking back, there's no way to express myself but by saying really sorry..>< and i really regreted letting them down..
After tat, i enjoyed my stay in westwood partly because of my friends and other reasons are because of the teachers there. I really accomplished something like be more confident wif myself, know how to express myself and my studies and all the exam really excel alot compared to me in pri scl..I know my sec 1 and 2 results was like SUX and really did very badly for almost all subject except maths and chinese..Thn along the way, met a few gd teachers tat helped me along the way and in sec 3, my results really improved since thn and get the 3rd in class LOL=)It was unexpected but i really work hard for it..=)
Then, i got to take up O lvl subject(maths and chinese) at sec 3 and was really happy abt it but the A.maths was like%^$#&@* I thought of giving up and drop tat subject as it was really difficult to me but with teachers,friends and my sis to assist and guide me, i continued on and manage to pass=)
At sec 4, N LVL comes..I work veri hardin studies and playing games too(MU) and thus, manage to get to sec 5 and really very happy abt the results too cuz all managed to pass and get all grade 4 and above=) I think if you really wan to achieve something, there's no other way except working hard for it..
Then at sec 5 was the time tat i began to slack and ended up nt doing well for o lvl..At tat point of time when i received my results, i felt veri useless abt myself and really cried out=) I told myself nt to cried but my tears just wont listen to my words-_- At tat point of time, i only knew tat i had been a letdown to both my parents and teachers as i knew they hav high expectation of me..I really felt like nt schooling anymore and get veri discouraged..But wif motivation from Ms Tan and Ms chia, i told myself to buck up and give myself another chance by retaking english this year..
So no matter how difficult the O LVL may be, i wont get beaten down easily and will really goes all the way for it!! But 1st , i nid to do the preparations 1st=) if nt i tink i will still fail my eng..=)
All this memories just went through my minds a few days back tats why i'm feeling emotional..Haiz and i somehow miss some of my SEc scl friends=).. Wish them all the best and thankx for everything..Okay i tink this entry is already very long le so shall stop here..
>Life's a long road and we sometime's dun know where we are, keep our hopes and passion burning and somedays we'll go far<
Let the thoughts go wild!
